Maybe you're just a piece of lettuce.

There may be seasons in your life where you will feel like you're being tossed about like an ordinary piece of lettuce in a salad. (Yes. Please excuse my awful title and me comparing you to a piece of lettuce. It is late.) You won't know where you belong, where you'll fit in, or what you're supposed to do. Maybe you won't have to endure seasons like that. I was really tempted to write that I hope, for your sake, you won't. But the more I think about it, the more I really hope you'll experience these seasons.

It is hard living in a way where you feel like you don't belong. I've definitely had my fair shares of experiences in this matter. Nothing in my life has been permanent except for a few friendships and most importantly: God's ever-present grace.

Today I was unfortunately let go from my job. It doesn't matter why or how. You know what matters? My reaction to it. After leaving I was visibly upset and as soon as I started my drive home I started ranting in my head. "Ugh. Seriously? When can I finally settle down? Is this just not going to happen for me? God, seriously: I have no place to call my permanent home, I have no boyfriend, and as it turns out, I have no job either. I have NOTHING. NADA." I was clearly frustrated and felt justified in my complaining. Out of nowhere though I hear the following words: "Are you serious right now? You have ME! You have your God. You have my GRACE."

OUCH. I just complained about having nothing when, in fact, I had everything. Homes, boyfriends/girlfriends/husbands/wives, jobs, etc. are not an accurate indicator of how much you have in this life. They are not an indication of a successful life. When am I going to get this through my thick skull? I keep thinking that in order to have a successful life I need to be settled down with a fixed income, and someone to share every day life with. But what if that's just not an option for me? What if my life will revolve around the basic premise of not being able to settle at all? Maybe that's my case, maybe it isn't. Again, that is not of importance. The only thing that matters is that I know for a fact who my life revolves around.

And He has never let me down or broken my trust.